I really sometimes can't believe that i'm living such a life... REALLY... I don't know whether i should be glad that my life is considered quite happening or whether i should be perplexed over the events in my life...
FIRSTLY on the guy that i had a crush on initially... It turned out that he got steady gf. It took awhile for me to get over him as I didn't want to get involved with a guy who already has a gf... For some people who strongly believe that they should fight for their happiness, will think i'm a fool for giving up without trying... but seriously, i'm just someone who lacks the courage to do so... and i've always been :( So... I decided to just treat me as a normal friend, without any feelings towards him... I look up to him as he is studious and hardworking, humorous, a sense of boyish character but yet can be a real gentleman... BUT... my impression of him DROPS till rather low... I don't know why??? Can't he even leave a good impression of himself? A good man like him... tarnishing his own good image... why why WHY? Haix... but i guess, we can't expect everyone to be what we expected them to be right? Because they themselves chose how they wanted to be in front of others... We are the viewers of the portrayals in life yet, ourselves are also portraying images to others. I have to accept... and swallow the harsh truth...
SECONDLY... I've been having this mixed feelings inside for some time... I don't know is i'm thinking and reading too much into some issues... or is I really do feel something? SIGH...
-|iars
-pp|e whO anyhOw vent their anger on others
-yucky fOods
CRAVINGS/WISHLIST
-get gOod grades fOr a|| my upcOming mOdules in sch
-dO wat i rea||i want in |ife (sigh...)
-tO try out signature dishes of sOme renOwned resturants...
-gO overseas shOpping mOre often
